When I first found out I was pregnant, I thought it was gonna be a breeze. I thought I would handle it like a champ. I truly had no idea what I was/am in store for now and in the future.

The truth is that the last 7 weeks of my life have been difficult. Literally sickening and sprinkled with moments of depression and sadness. 

Don't get me wrong, I'm excited about the bundle of joy I'm brewing up inside of me. I believe this special little one has a very important role to play in the world. 

But there are also so some serious emotions that come along with this process. I found it hard to write, difficult to be around people and experienced a serious lack of inspiration.

Basically, the version of myself that I had come to know and love over the past 25 years had vanished. Sure there are traces of her here and there, but in the grand scheme of things, she was gone. 

I'm still mourning loss of her. But now more than ever, enthusiasm sweeps over me when I feel my tummy begin to grow. 

For now, I'm picking of the pieces of me and rearranging them in a new way, that allows me to fully embrace my new life in the best way possible. 

I'm not one of those women who seem like their on pregnancy crack - like this is the moment they were born for and nothing else matters. I'm not someone who has an easy pregnancy with no speed bumps. 

I am a mom who does the best she can every day with what she has. I've now made peace with the fact, that that is just how it's going to be. Tomorrow morning, I'll be making peace again. 

Megan Monique 

I want you to take a moment to close your eyes and take a deep breath. Allow yourself to settle into the space you are in. Once you feel settled, think back to the beginning of your day. 

How many judgments have you made since rising out of bed this morning?

There's no need to be ashamed, or embarrassed. We all do it. Just think about it. 

It might have been when you got dressed - you made judgments about how your body looked in the mirror. Or maybe it was driving to work when the car next to you cut you off. 

Judgments are live in minds and thoughts everyday. They crowd our ever waking moment. 

Do they feel good - mostly not. Why is this? Because judgments are an extension of the ego. They are also a version of mental-clutter. 

Judgments tell us when something is good, when it's bad and they define our experiences which can be incredibly limiting. 

I want to invite you today, to take notice of yourself and write down each time you make a judgment, of yourself, of others, of an experience - any and every judgment that occurs to you. 

This isn't to make you "wrong" for what you are doing - that in itself would be a judgment. 

This is an exercise in becoming more self-aware. 

The more judgment we can clear from our minds, the more we can fill those spaces with love. 

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In my upcoming 5 week tele-course, Creating Transformation, we'll be working in depth to clear judgment, amongst other things, from our minds and lives. It's going to be a very empowering experience for us all. To get updates on course info subscribe here. 

I've been thinking about coming here and writing but every time I sit down a slight fear sweeps over me. Of what exactly? I'm not completely sure. 

In this moment, I feel like I'm going through a shift. We all shift at some point.

Often more frequently that we choose to pay attention to.

There are always some shifts that slap you on the face a little harder than others. The ones that peak their heads out of a sea of constant emotion and yell MARCO! at the top of their lungs. 

They may not always appear as something violent, make-you-stop-in-your-tracks-BOLD. 

Sometimes these shifts can be as subtle as a breath. Click here to tweet this.

They can be that strange moment when the sadness you were feeling turned into gratitude at the blink of an eye. 

In fact, by the end of this post, I will most likely have shifted into a new space. My fear of sharing my thoughts with you here will have left me and a freedom will have found its way into my heart. 

The shifts are what make us. 
They are what we ride on from point A to point B. They are what create momentum in our lives. And above all us they act as the sail - always choosing, along with our emotions, which direction to take us in next. 

Don't have hate for the shift. Only love and appreciation. In all of its discomfort and sometimes, yes, struggle - the shift, has our best interest at heart. 

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Last night, I went an Old Year, New Year Celebration with about 30 or more other women, hosted by the lovely Lisa Carmen of SacredSexyU.com. 

I woke up this morning still savoring the questions  and oozing about the answers I found in myself yesterday. 

I guess my brain has kind of been in a pregnancy fog, if there is such a thing. 

Last week I kept finding myself being judgmental of my actions and experiencing a kind of disconnect between me and my higher self. 

But after yesterday's event I feel fresh and revitalized -  back in the flow of things.  So I decided to share the questions with you all. 

Remember, if you dig the questions, take a moment to drop on Lisa's Facebook page and let her know you enjoyed them. I like to give credit where credit is due! 

2011 - A Year in Review 

• When I look back on 2011, I can say it was the year that I
  
• In 2011 I learned the following about myself...
  
• The most unexpected blessing of 2011
  
• How did I surprise myself in 2011?
  
• How did I take care of myself in 2011?
  
• The worst thing about 2011 was...
  
• The best thing about 2011 was...

2012 - The Year Ahead

• When I look ahead toward 2012, I would like it to be the year I...
  
• How would I like to take care of myself better in 2012?
  
• What do I want more of in 2012?
  
• What do I want less of?
  
• What hobbies, interests or passions would I like to develop in the upcoming year?
  
• What is my greatest intention in 2012?
  
• If I were to declare a theme or one word for the new year, it would be...
  

If you want to see my answers, I left em in the comment area and I'd love to hear yours too! 

I'm hosting a Tele-party on Tuesday, my first EVER tele-party. It's gonna be awesome and I'd LOVE it if you'd join me. 

Even if you can't be on the call it would be great to register because I'm sending out the recording the next day. 

I hope you are having a fabulous weekend filled with lots of awesome and a whole lotta love! 

One of my personal commitments for 2012 is to be unstoppable, unreasonable and fiercely, wildly abundant  in my business this year. 

I know for a fact that these next 6 months, while bun is still in the oven, I'll be researching, talking and studying up on some of my favorite biz ladies and doing what it takes to make my business truly profitable. 

I'm lucky enough to be learning from the fabulous Kate Buck Jr. She's a social media Queen and an all around bad ass. 

My first task is to really put myself out there and have a teleseminar. Which I interpreted into a Tele-party. I like parties. 

So, consider this your formal invitation to ...

The 5 Things You Need to Know for Your Spiritual Transformation in 2012 Tele-party! (Yes, I said all of that in one breath.) 

If you want to join the part, you can register here, It's FREE!

It's not always easy choosing the intuitive life. 

Being self-aware means listening to yourself on deep, soul-habituating level as often as possible. 

Often it means putting logic and the ideas of what others might think of you aside. 

It can be uncomfortable, aching, heart clenching and literally - painful. 

I had one of those moments today. The last time I had one that LARGE was a little over a year ago when Owning Pink and I went our separate ways. 

I had a moment where very intense emotions of panic and sadness came over me. Then I heard a voice saying "this is what needs to happen." Shortly after that I got an email telling me my time there was done. 

It was painful and scary. But my departure was loving and filled with gratitude. 

Shortly after that was when I started making money for myself through my coaching and online courses. That voice was right. It was what needed to happen to push me into my light.

I'm not quite ready to reveal what my moment was about today. There are still some lose ends being tied up. 

But I know that I was really, completely honest with myself and the other parties involved. 

It was scary and kind of painful. But I have complete faith that I'm dancing in the right direction for this moment. 

One of my greatest gifts is Listening Intuitively. I help each one of my clients connect with their inner voice to bring about peace and strength in their lives. If you'd like to be one of those ladies, check out my Soul Sessions. It'll rock your world.  

What People Are Saying...
"That is what I mean about me not thinking about you as a coach. You transcend that description to me because you are more like spiritual guide you have this kind and gentle way of telling people exactly what they need to do and lighting a fire inside of them."

- Megan Collier
Everlasting Present

About once every 3 months or so, I have an emotional tidal wave that shows up. 

It's just how my spirit works. It's my cycle. 

That doesn't mean I don't get sad when unfortunate things happen. Or happy when joyous things occur. 

But for some reason during that moment every three months  or so I am extra sensitive, more vulnerable and incredibly honest. (I'm not talking about PMS here, folks. This is bigger.)

My last "experience" was just a few days ago. 

I was sitting in the dining room at Lacy's house and read this comment from a friend on my blog post.... 

I know that you know I read your blog all the time but I never leave any comments! I just think them in my head and go along with my day...But for this I had to comment! I have never been so excited for a baby to be born! I can't wait to meet this little awesome bundle of a miracle and be a part of her/his life! Im so glad I'm a part of yours! I love you bestie! <3

and I started BAWLING. Hysterically. With noises and snot - I mean, the whole works.

Luckily I was there alone (aside from the pooches) so I just let myself carry on. Sometimes you just need to get it all out. 

At one point, I remember thinking - "why are you crying like this?"

The answer came to me in a flash. 

I was mourning. 

Don't get me wrong. 

The Mister and I are more than thrilled to be having this little one. 

I know it will be a powerful, joyous, love-filled spirit put here to play a big role in the world. 

But I'm also a little scared and sad. 

My whole, life, my only priority has only ever been my own happiness. 

But now, my needs and wants (to some degree) will be taking the back seat to this wee one.

I know I will find my own kind of balance, but it's still scary. 

Will I lose my wild, entrepreneurial side? 

Will I still be driven in my business and personal evolution?

Will my relationship with The Mister still be as amazing as it is now? 

So ya, I'm mourning a bit. 

Mourning the way things have been. Who I have been. Who we have been as a couple. 

I have no doubt that everything will fall into it's own lovely space, just as it should. 

But the mourning is still necessary. 

After-all, it's okay to be sad about change. But it's important to remember we have no idea the miracles and beauty that lie ahead. 

And boy oh boy, are they something to be celebrated! Known and unknown. 

That quote from dearest Deepak scares me a little bit. I think about what I want to accomplish in my lifetime and to be quite honest, I'm unsure. 

I mean, of course a book deal with Hay House sounds delicious - but is that really what I want? 

Sometimes it's hard to see with a clear mind for myself with all of the amazing people I follow online. I see the things they are doing and I feel a little jealousy arise within me. I take that for acknowledgment of something that I want. 

But I don't want to do it the way they've done it. In fact, that would be kind of impossible. I want to do it in truth to my own values and worth. My own life experiences.

But the thought of that leaves me unclear. 

In 2012 I want to spend more time with myself. Especially in these first 6 months before the baby is born. I want to read more and question myself more. I want to get down to a very clean and clear level of what it is that I want for my life. 

I don't really need a plan - I like to fly by the seat of The Universe, that way. But I never really take the time to ask myself, "hey Megan, what do you want sister?" 


Loads of Love,
Megan Monique 

I am looking forward to another year of sparkling, warm clients who are ready to light their lives up!

If you are one of these people, be sure to check out my Soul Sessions - they're source connection waiting to happen. 

You are here for a reason. ― Deepak Chopra

In January of this year I got the call that it was time for me to be a Mom in 2012.

The idea of it was scary. Before I got the call, I was completely unsure that I even wanted kids. I didn't know for sure if I wanted to be married either. (Not that you have to be married to have kids, but it was something I wanted.)

As time rolled on and I accepted the call - The Mister and I tied the knot on June 11, 2011 at A Day Away Retreat in Boyd, Texas. It was The Most Magical Day of My Life. I couldn't have asked for a better wedding or a supportive group of people to celebrate it with. 

After that, The Mister and I started trying, but not trying to get pregnant. It just wasn't happening. So I decided to surrender and trust that my 2012 baby would arrive just when it (although, I think, she) was suppose to. 

And just like that, 3 or so weeks ago, I found out I had a bun in the oven. 

Being pregnant hasn't been easy for me. I've never really been sick so not having a lot of energy and experience constant nausea has been quite the adjustment for me. 

I was even kind of angry with myself for feeling like crap for a while. 

I couldn't do the work I wanted to do. My house was a mess. I felt a lot less than chipper and on top of all that, since we hadn't shared the news with our families, I couldn't write about it here. 

Which is hands down, my most ultimate therapy. 

But things are getting better. Our families know. I can write about this bundle of joy, frustration, love and nausea all I please. And the sickness does seem to be subsiding a bit. 

It's an adjustment. A big one. But a welcomed one. 

Holding on for the ride,
Megan Monique